July 29, 2025 by Cassandra Johnson
Passion meets insecurity and the former outweighs wanting to shrink and hide away.
I felt my self-conscious attitude being overshadowed by my curiosity, and going confidently into new surroundings was surpassed by my desire for the experience.
When I was child and also as the years passed, my objectives and wishes for my life just matched my curiosity, morphing into passions. Naturally, still, I hide away, but my, how hard it is to stay this way. I guess there is a quiet resilience in that, also a stubbornness, but I am thinking now how this also marries my desires to my will.
From something premiere like picking up my musical instrument and practicing daily to trying out for soccer, I was emboldened by the potential and ongoing excitement.
Learning a language. Meeting more international people from as many cultures as possible and being interested in my African American History and culture placed me in settings, events, conversations and circumstances to which I would continue to be drawn, no matter how intermittently the shy, insecure moments entered in.
I trust the excitement and honest curiosity.